saying goodbye

reading Leonard Cohen by candlelight, visualizing bonfire night, your birthday were you still alive under that streetlamp, we could walk together to your bench and talk awhile it’s what we always did best— just talk, just care I’ll print this poem in a lonely font and burn it in a bowl, set the ashes facing east next time it storms
Ten minutes into this interview, and my frayed sleeve is on full display, but not in a good way definitely not a hey, sailor-ish way, more, she has to stretch 50 dollars over 10 days. you raise your eyes and give a soft clearing of your throat, and if I were a New Orleans seagull, I would...
After waking up from a four day binge of alcohol, hash, pills, I found myself lying next to a woman I didn’t love, though she said that she loved me, the woman I loved had marched out of my world: beside the bed, the floor was cluttered with empty wine bottles, over-flowing ashtrays, take-out-food cartons, plates of rotting food and the interest of...
blue jays build a nest in the pine, swallows migrate overhead, wren in and out of the compost, centipede in beak behind the fence children screech, entitled neighbours don’t distance from friends, posture, to sear game meat drink, smoke, snort we sip coffee in the comfort of inverse snobbery, snicker that their RV is worth more than our house and contents, exchange snide whispers, our quiet, spoiled from...
—for DJFIII What will we do when an electro- magnetic pulse from space voids our I-need-it-now! lifestyle? We'll find a lot of mice with eyes aimed low ready to submit. ​
That's what I learned on TV. The first fish to crawl from the muck became me. These hands were fins; lungs, once gills. I shot my sperm in the water without getting laid. Now I jerk into Kleenex. Big difference.
"I need something positive," I said. "I farted 5 times," she replied. I had no idea marriage would be like this.
I can't take this stuck, covid 19 not a store open to buy something inessential (which are the best things to buy) I've gone to corona hell and I don't even have the virus which could be my next circle of covid hades the gas station slot machine keeps taking my money because it's the only thing to...
14,000 energy drinks can't be wrong the taste is mutant fruit by the 14,000th one today it's like drinking a flat soda can't think bumbling down the highway heart attacks in my chest weak without food caffeine crapped waterfall on the sunoco bathroom floor everything sticks out more than usual like the discount store owner statue's front teeth biting...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9MH6c3h2k4   Worrying about doing a poetry reading at Barnes & Noble I don't know if the guy sitting next to me heard me try to apologize for accidentally moving his car magazines and taking his spot obnoxious hrrr of the espresso machine I had to talk over one at the books a million reading with Dennis who showed...